Sunday, September 20, 2009

Why oh why...?

I'm in corrections hell this weekend, having left my amendments and reformatting the darned thesis to the last possible block of time available. Why oh why haven't I changed and learned from my submission experience to NOT leave things to the last minute??????

Maybe a leopard can't change its spots, but surely one can modify one's carefully honed procrastination techniques a little, to reduce the inevitable stress a bit???? It's not as if there's a special procrastination gene that makes me biologically inclined to put things off.... or is there? Maybe it's the academic equivalent of bungee jumping, though the prospect of an impending deadline doesn't really get my adrenaline going in a terribly positive way. PhD deadline as daredevil bookish equivalent of extreme sport? Or possibly not.

I watched a small child having a tantrum in the supermarket checkout queue the other day, screaming till his little red, shiny, tear-stained face was all contorted with hysterical anguish, though he was just sitting in his buggy and there was no obvious reason for his sudden and very short-lived outburst. "Mummy mummy mummy, I don't want to....!!!!" he moaned. I thought yeah, I know how you feel mate, try doing a PhD.

I haven't had a tantrum btw, or enlisted my mum's help either. I've just holed myself up for a few days in self-imposed isolation to get my work finished. I'd better get on with it then, and stop reading my spam, watching youtube, playing music, cleaning the bathroom, making cups of tea, reading my horoscope, wondering what's happening with our jobs, thinking about firework night.... oh, there are so many things to do when you've got things to do.

And before I finally logout, here's a pic of Joan Collins circa 1958 with a nice leopard print backdrop. She's always very glamorous, whatever the decade.


Roses said...

It's not procrastination, it's effective Time Management. If it's not due yet, you can do other more pressing/interesting/necessary/fun things.

Get with the programme!

It's my excuse and I'm sticking to it.

The Mummy's Bracelet said...

My problem yesterday was it gradually turned from fairly contented procrastination into anxiety and abject misery.
Ah well, at least it got me working...

I have to take it to the binders on Wednesday/Thursday at the latest.

Helen McCookerybook said...

Believe it or not, procrastination is a personality trait that's recognised by Myers/Briggs in their analyses of personality types. I had to do one of their tests once on a course, which I was really grumpy about at first, until the unfakeable results amazed me (and everyone else who did it).
So... it's not your fault, Claire, it's beyond your control! Just go with the flow, procrastinate and enjoy the anxiety and abject misery for what they are, parts of your many faceted and unique personality!
good luck, BTW!

The Mummy's Bracelet said...

Thanks Helen, that's strangely reassuring! Though I could show a bit more willpower probably.... maybe...!? I'm a bit pissed off that my crappy laissez-faire timetabling messed up coming to your gig on Friday though. I'll be SO glad when this thing's finally done!

See you soon, I hope! x